Is it possible to have a mini mid-life crisis? If so, I truly believe that I am having one! My life is SO busy and hectic that I seriously do not even have time to think. I have recently put out applications for a new job. After working in childcare for 5 years, I am on the verge of a mental break down!(NO...I WON'T SHAVE MY HEAD....DON'T WORRY!)
I have come to realize that I am at a point in my life that if it means either choosing to be a lead teacher or focus on my school, I would walk away from my job at any minute. I am SO tired all the time. Chasing 12 3 year olds around all day long is starting to get to me. Plus, trying to keep up with my school work.
I know I know...when I am a mom I am going to be even more tired than I am now. I know all of this! I am just afraid that if I continue to work in childcare I will seriously consider NEVER having my own.
I know that I do not want to do this forever(childcare). I WANT to be a teacher. I applied to be a TA(Teacher's Assistant) with the school system. I want something new. I want a teacher to take me under their wing and me my mentor. I want to learn about the school system and what it is going to be like when I have my own classroom. BUT.....here's the problem! This is a college town. People that get their degrees and cannot find work right away become TAs until they do. SO......Automatically they out qualify me for the job. :0(
I had one interview last week and I could tell that they made up their minds before I was even interviewed. My interview today was good. I felt better about it, but I was the 1st interview of 5 for 1 position!!!!!! Sorry I am just frustrated and venting(if you could not already guess). I WANT a new job. but I think that it's not going to be easy getting a new job. I do not have my degree yet so I am at a huge disadvantage.
Any thoughts??? Suggestions? Ideas on how to make my job suck less?
I LOVE kids and I want to work with kids....but I do not want my current job to burn me out.........HELP!!!!!!!!!!
2 comments:
Ok--first, it won't have any effect on your deciding to have kids. Other people's kids aren't the same as your own. Even if your kids are being bad, you still love them (even if you don't like them at the time!) So--you'll be fine when the time comes that you want your own kids.
Second, have you considered looking at something that doesn't have anything to do with kids? Even though you want to see what it is like in a classroom, you will have time to do that when you student teach and stuff. Maybe taking a break for a little while would give you a renewed spirit when it came time to "get down to the real business."
I know this sounds like a step back, but what about doing something that is not a "career" type job. I have a million times considered waiting tables for a few months because I love it and made good money, and when the shift was over, the work was over. Didn't carry it home with me in my brain at the end of the day. It is also really flexible, so it works well with a student's schedule. I made GREAT money waiting tables. Took a huge pay cut when I graduated and took a job in my field. There's other stuff besides restaurant work, but that's my favorite.
Hope you get a break, some peace, and some rest!
I agree--maybe you should do something outside the field. What about cooking since you like that? I've often looked at people who work in the commissary or such, and thought, I'd like to do that. Just to be able to stand there, scanning items and totally zoning out, sounds awesome sometimes! Even if you don't make much money.
I got a pay raise when I started working in my field, but the stress level was outrageous. And I took it home with me emotionally. I knew when I quit I had to or I'd burnout. I'm almost ready to go back after 6 years. Sometimes, the money isn't worth it.
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