My blog use to be an escape for me. I use to rant on here and feel better and I guess I want to get back to that. As you all know I am at the lowest point in my life I have EVER been and boy does it suck. I just pray every day for better days. 2 months to the day exactly of my split from Joe he posted pictures of him with the GIRL and kissing her. His mood said loved. I just lost it.I sat here and wept and even wondered how someone I spent 9 years with could be so heartless?? I think some random girl at a bar would not have bothered me. But this was the girl he ruined my marriage for.:0(
I am not angry with God. I am actually spending a lot of time at my church, but I am just confused. How much more do I have to hurt?? How much worse does it have to get?? I recently turned 29. I want nothing more than to be a mom, but I sadly think that my chances for that are getting slimmer and slimmer. It could take YEARS to find someone and maybe by then it will be too late to have kids. Joe never was ready to have kids with me but the GIRL has a 3year old son. That kills me too. I am trying to be strong, and some days I am fine. Then there are days all I do is cry. I am just in need of a lot of prayer right now. Things are just hard.
