My blog use to be an escape for me. I use to rant on here and feel better and I guess I want to get back to that. As you all know I am at the lowest point in my life I have EVER been and boy does it suck. I just pray every day for better days. 2 months to the day exactly of my split from Joe he posted pictures of him with the GIRL and kissing her. His mood said loved. I just lost it.I sat here and wept and even wondered how someone I spent 9 years with could be so heartless?? I think some random girl at a bar would not have bothered me. But this was the girl he ruined my marriage for.:0(
I am not angry with God. I am actually spending a lot of time at my church, but I am just confused. How much more do I have to hurt?? How much worse does it have to get?? I recently turned 29. I want nothing more than to be a mom, but I sadly think that my chances for that are getting slimmer and slimmer. It could take YEARS to find someone and maybe by then it will be too late to have kids. Joe never was ready to have kids with me but the GIRL has a 3year old son. That kills me too. I am trying to be strong, and some days I am fine. Then there are days all I do is cry. I am just in need of a lot of prayer right now. Things are just hard.
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Oh sweetie...I just want to give you a big hug!!
MEN SUCK!!!! :-)
Love you!
I'm sorry you are hurting so much. I am sorry that he is making it worse...I can't imagine why he thinks it is ok to do that. Please know that I am praying for you. I wish I could do something to help you...please tell me if you think of something.
Hey...how are you? I keep checking to see if you've written anything new. Let me know how you are doing. I can't find your email address. If you have time, leave it as a comment on my blog. I have to moderate them, so no one will see it. Hope you're doing ok.
You could always adopt as well :)
I'm sure things will get better. Just because you are/were 29 doesn't mean your hitting some end-of-life trail. With faith, there is plenty of time to find a mate and have a baby.
Maybe because you were with one man so young and so long you think you're past your prime, but you are not!
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