What happened??

A few have e-mailed and asked what happened to Gavin(the boy in my daycare). I will do my best to keep it together long enough to write this without tears all over my laptop! Gavin had asthma. He would sometimes need breathing treatments, but not really a big deal. Well Friday(13th) his teacher said he seemed a little tired and not himself all day. We called mom and dad and they said asthma and that they would give him a treatment that evening. Well I guess the next day Grandma was watching him and said he seemed not right. She took him to the hospital and turns out he had pneumonia. He did not act all the sick, a little wheezy, but not too alarming. I guess they put him in an oxygen tank or something to do with oxygen to help his lungs. His dad called Monday and said things were better and they were giving less oxygen and possible moving him out of ICU. Gavin passed away 2 days later after having an asthma attack.
One of my teachers is beating herself up saying she should have done more, and I think in a way is blaming herself. I reassured her that it was not her fault and that she did all she could have done. It still does not seem completely real to me. We all loved him so much. We spend a lot of time with our kids and we get very attached to them. You can't help it...they become your kids in a way! We are all just taking it one day at a time.
We are going to build a new playground in his honor. If anybody knows of Big Companies that might donate to new playground equipment that would be super cool. We are in desperate need of a new playground!
Anyway, just thought I would share since some of you asked. I guess it is helping me in a way too.
*HUGS*

Wrapping my head around it all.....

Well as most of you know I was on vacation last week. We went to Indianapolis, Cincinnati, and Chicago. AMAZING AMAZING trip!! Well...that was until the day I got the phone call...One of the little boys that attended my daycare passed away on March 18th. He would have been 2 on April 14th. This little guy and I were VERY close. I know I am not supposed to play favorites, but he was. I opened my center everyday and he was always the first to get there so we had a lot of cuddle time and one on one time. I was building quite the relationship with his parents too. He meant a lot to me. The funeral was yesterday and it was very tough on all of my employees. I could not look at the parents during the funeral. The thought of a parent burying their child was too much for me. I also had a hard time with the coffin. They are not supposed to be that small. They just aren't it not right. I am a religious person and I love God very much, but I am going to be honest. I am having a hard time understanding why it was his time? Why did God need such a precious angel? I am not angry...just confused.
My employees are taking it really hard. I am going to get a councilor in to talk to them all.
Please just pray for Gavin's parents(Kurk and Tiffani). I ask selfishly that you pray for me and my employees too and that was can have some comfort and closure.

Results

So the doc went over the ct scan with me. I have A LOT of cysts on my ovaries. One that was apparently quite large already ruptured(hence the massive amounts of pain). There is apparently a lot of blood and fluid in my body from the one that ruptured. So...PAIN killers and new birth control for me! I go back in 2 weeks. If the cysts are still there then they might go in and remove them. Wish me luck the new pills work and all will be well. I HAVE to get well vacation....... is in 5 days!!!!

Keep me in your prayers

I had a pain in my side last Thursday. It has gotten a lot worse so I went to the doctor yesterday. They did blood work and a CT Scan. I find out today what is going on. Just keep me in your prayers please.

Roxxi

9 days til vacation, 9 days til vacation, 9 days til vacation!!!

So...I am more than ready for my vacation! Work has REALLY gotten to me lately. I decided to go and pamper myself a little today. I went and got a way over due TOTALLY needed hair cut. I am posting pics of the new cut. Please excuse the mess in the background. I took them in Joe's "Man Cave" where all of his junk is. LADIES IF YOUR MAN DOES NOT HAVE A MAN CAVE HE SHOULD!!!!! If you give them a room for all their crap, then they don't leave it all over the house! It's fabulous!:0)


Hope everyone is doing well and as ready for spring as I am. It was 88 here today and I LOVED it! I took the kids out all afternoon. We got a big dose of vitamin D.
Gotta run...early morning ahead!

Feeling it!!

OK so whoever thought that being a wife, a boss and a college student all at the same time was a good idea...is crazy!I am totally starting to feel the effects of trying to do all 3. I became the director of a daycare here in Stillwater in November. I am an ECE( Early Childhood Education) Major and trying to figure out where that degree will take me. I thought sure why not try a director and see if you like it. The daycare is small(only licenced for 42) so I thought...ah what the hey! It can't be that hard. HA!! Every day is a new challenge. I feel like I am pulled in 8 different directions every day. Not to mention keeping 42 kids and PARENTS happy. There is ALWAYS someone that calls in(almost daily) but since we are so small we do not have extra staff, so it makes it hard on everyone. Last week I had 2 teachers call in on the same day. I seriously left for class crying because my stress level was through the roof. I sometimes LOVE my job and other days I just want to give it all up.
Then there is school. I am at "big girl" school now and IT SUCKS!! I went to a smaller college up until now and this semester transferred to OSU. At my old school you had really small classes where the professor knows your name(and their always glad you came... ha ha that song popped into my head!) and you are actually a student. Now I am one of 65 in one class and NO ONE cares if you come to class or not and I feel completely lost! Not to mention even the homework is a lot tougher. A girl in my class said " You survived your husband in Iraq and you are worried about surviving this class?" I said yes! Iraq was not easy but I had my girlfriends! I have no on here to help me.:0) I would sometimes take Iraq again over statistics and child theory.
I am basically writing this letter as a stress reliever. I need to vent for a minute and clear my head. Just a lot to take in right now.

On one VERY HAPPY NOTE..... I am gonna be an aunt!!!:0) My brother and his wife are expecting their first one in the Fall!!!!! My mom is SUPER happy...it's the first Grand baby for her!:0) Maybe their second can grow up with our first;0)

Have a great week!! *HUGS*

Still alive!

I am still here! I am SO busy with work and school I literally DO NOT have any time to come on here! To catch you up... I just celebrated 6 year anniversary on the 8th... caught a HORRIBLE stomach virus on the 7th and was sick up until yesterday(13th) with it. YEAH...pretty awful stuff. We went out last night for a Valentines? Anniversary present since I was sick on my anniversary. I got Wii Fit for my anniversary. LOVE IT!! More on that later! I guess there is one blessing to the stomach virus...the Wii and the scale both said I am 10 pounds lighter!:0)HAPPY VALETINE'S DAY TO ALL!! Or as we call is Shmalentine's Day. (we incorporate our cat Shmegdwarf into all holidays) I know cheesy...but we love him...a lot!
Oh yeah going to Indianapolis next month for spring break. E and whoever else...what do we need to see/ do there??!!

Yuck...back to work!

We have been out of school and work for the last two days due to ice and snow. I am NOT looking forward to going to class or work. I kind of like this whole no school thing.....oh well! Back in the grind. How many days until spring break??

IT'S BACK!!!!

Last week one of my greatest loves came back! Yep American Idol is back on. I am a HUGE HUGE fan of the show. Our first song at our wedding was a moment like this by Kelly Clarkson. For those that don't know I am a singer and I went to college(the first time) on a music scholarship. I love watching to awful ones and love getting goose bumps from the great ones.:0) This is a new year for me...maybe this will be the summer I try out!? Anyway, I am SO excited about this season. I am also excited I bought Joe Tivo for Christmas...no more missed shows!

My first sewing project on my new machine!!

My dear friend Alexa is having a Birthday tomorrow and is moving soon back to Cincinnati where she is from. I was trying to think of the perfect gift for her. Her two favorite loves are Pabst Blue Ribbon beer and purses. So I decided to combine them. I bought the shirt on eBay. It arrived last night and I soon got to work! Here are some pictures of the finished product. Hope you(and she) enjoy them!
The first picture is the pocket inside the purse made from the sleeve of the shirt. The second picture is the finished product.
P.S. I am now taking your requests for t-shirts too!:0)

Marley and Me

Grab a friend or your hubby and a box of tissues and go see it! I loved it and recommend it to anyone!

2009= the year of me

My New Years resolution is to spend this year on me. I have decided that this year I am going to try new adventures, find new hobbies and spend the year on myself. My best friend here is joining Weight Watchers and wants me to be her support, so I am going to join too. I am going to use this year to find a way to exercise that I actually ENJOY versus seeming like exercise. I am not a runner or treadmill fan. Asthma and big boobs=not liking to run! So...I am going to explore my options. When my Grandmother passed away last February she willed her AMAZING high tech sewing;embroidery machine to me.I just got it last week and I am looking forward to using it. I know how to sew but I am going to explore the world of embroidery. I have never been a reader, but I am going to make a point to read this year. Even if it's a page a book per night. I survived high school and college on cliff's notes and those that know me know I am ADD, but I want to enjoy reading.
I love to cook and if I can brag for a minute I am a damn good one! he he but this year I am going to branch out in my cooking styles and create dishes I would have never made before. I am even going to branch into some seafood which I have not been a fan of before.

Anyway, I guess this blog is getting long so I will run. Basically I am saying that somewhere along the way in trying to please everyone else I forgot about myself. NOT THIS YEAR!! I am going to live for me and do things I love.

Don't know if you know this but...

Head Colds and Finals BOTH SUCK.
That is all.
Back to studying!

Bring on the Turkey!!

Since I am the boss I let my self off at 10:30 this morning and I am LOVING my day off! I am baking cheesecakes and an apple pie. I am just being lazy and enjoying the peace!:0) Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy and safe Thanksgiving. Hope you all enjoy spending time with family and friends.

Sleeping...a lot

Joe is home and it's been ok. I say ok because you ladies know what I mean... You get set in your ways and your own routine, and then they come home. It throws everything off. :0) He is on a mission to just play XBOX until school starts in Jan. I would complain...but he's been doing house work too!
I have been sleeping A LOT. I mean a whole lot. Most nights 9pm is LATE for me going to bed. I am the boss at my job and I never realized how much energy goes into being a boss. Started to question my sleepiness....but then my aunt flow came...so...not THAT!!! I have been working many 6:45am to 6:00pm days. I like most parts of my job. Had to fire someone today. That part is not fun.:0(
Anyway, it's 10:00 pm and I cannot keep my eyes open, so off to bed I go!:0)
That is if I can sleep over the ROCK BAND coming from the living room.

Almost Over!

Well Joe is officially released on Thursday. I cannot believe that 6 months is finally done. Clear back in May this day seemed SO FAR away! He is home on a 4 day weekend. He leaves Tuesday and then comes home for good 2 days later. Weird I know...you would have thought they could have just let him stay home.
I got my stitches out last week. I tend to still favor that hand and not use it unless I have to. I guess I am still worried about breaking open that new skin. It seems to be healing nice and no infection, which I am happy about.
I got a new job and new title,but don't have time to tackle that today. Have to get ready for a Birthday Party.

WARNINIG...If grossed out easily DO NOT read BLOG!!

Where have I been lately?? Well I have been struggling to eat, shower,and dress....Why you ask?? Because I have 8 stitches in my hand! Let me explain...
Saturday morning finishing up a wedding cake. I am leveling the cakes. This means cutting the tops off so that they are level. At about noon I am working on a layer when I accidentally slice my hand instead of the cake. It bled like crazy...but I knew I HAD to finish the cake. So...lots of band aids...and a latex glove...and back to the cakes. Hour later...repeat..new band aid and glove...and so on and so on(for a total of 8 hours).
Finished the cake drove it an hour to home town. My parents came to help put it together. We finish and dad says "OK let me see it". So I take off the glove, and it's STILL bleeding(it's been 9 hours bleeding now). So we went to the minor emergency clinic. After cleaning it all up they decide I need stitches. I got 8 stitches in my hand. OUCH it hurts.
So.....typing is very difficult and driving...so I have been doing as little as possible til the stitches come out. One last thought...ever try putting on a bra one handed??? Yeah, it SUCKS!!!! Here is a picture of my hand.

Ha Ha Ha this will make you laugh!

I saw this tonight and had to share! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! Incase you are wondering...it's Koby Bryant, A-Rod, Michael Phelps, and Tony Hawk!!

We miss you buddy

Joe's best friend SSG Garth Sizemore passed away in Iraq 2 years ago today. We miss you buddy and think of you often.

Tagged

Tagged

I was tagged by my friend-- THANKS A!!
Here are the rules:
1. Post the rules on your blog
2. List 6 random things about yourself
3. Tag 6 people at the end of your post


--I sleep with my feet out of the covers. I cannot stand to be cold sleeping, but also cannot stand my feet to be covered up.

-- I NEVER wear matching socks... I think that it's bad luck!:0)

--I went to college the first time on a music scholarship. I use to tour the country in high school with a singing group.

-- I am STILL terrified of the dark and I CANNOT STAND clowns

--I am getting closer to wanting to be a mom...not quite there yet, even though I am 28....
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--Every airplane ride to and from Germany was a DISASTER!! Lost luggage, emergency landings, bomb threats, death....you name it...it happened!

Not very interesting. . .I know. I will probably think of better stuff later, after I've posted this. If I do, I'll change them in a different post.

Tag:
Jen
Jamie
Brandy
That's about it....all the others were already tagged before me!